Ruin my life?

Dear God,

I'm sitting here...it's 7:15 on a saturday. I'm jammin' to Jeff Johnson's song Ruin Me...humbling song! I'm distressed though. I have a huge decision to make and I'm scared to pray about it because I'm not sure what I want the answer to be. This decision could completly change my comfortable life. I want the words of this song to penetrate my weak heart. Let this be the cry of my heart 'cause I'm to scared to say it!

Woe to me I am unclean
A sinner found in Your presence
I see you
Seated on Your throne
Exalted, Your Glory surrounds You

(Pre-chorus)
Now the plans that I have made
Fail to compare when I see your glory

(Chorus)
Ruin my life the plans I have made
Ruin desires for my own selfish gain
Destroy the idols that have taken Your place'
'Til its You alone I live for, You alone I live for.

(Bridge)
Holy Holy is the Lord Almighty
Holy is the Lord!
Holy Holy is the Lord Almighty
Holy is the Lord!

God is HUGE in the small things.

I was talking to a colleague today when my phone rang. I didn't know the number but picked up the phone anyway. It was a local pest control company informing me that the family before me bought a lifetime termite protection for the house, the renewal fee was an easy $20. I almost broke out into tears. You're probably wondering why...well I have been burdened since we moved in almost a year ago that we needed termite protection. I have talked to several companies and have been quoted as little as $400 and as much as $600 for protection. We couldn't financially do it, despite the pertinate need! Understanding that we couldn't do it financially didn't not aleviate the burden on my mind about possible termite damage and the problems that they would bring.

I have been praying recently (thanks to a suddle reminder from Jaime Harris) that God would reveal himself to me and that I would see it. Well...as i was talking to the lady, it hit me. GOD'S GOT IT ALL TAKEN CARE OF! I don't need to worry or try to take matters into my own hands. I need to live my life in a way to glorifies him and God will get things to happen in God's own way. They may not always seem right or fit into my "American capitalistic - wealth, health, and happiness ideas", but they are always good!

Termite protection...God is HUGE in the small things!